Monday, June 4, 2012
Wow it's been a while since I wrote on this blog.
But I have been writing. I swear.
Actually at the time I stopped writing the blog, I started to write a screenplay believe it or not. It felt so right and so good.
The first draft is done. I finished it fast because I wanted to prove to myself that I could do it.
I was riding the wave of writing for month. I wrote monologues, scenes after scenes, I wrote my morning pages every day. I even wrote, produce and play in a short film '' Scratch''.
I felt such happiness.
Then suddenly everything stopped. The need and want to write so frenetically stopped.
I tried to write but I couldn't. I couldn't find an explanation. It lasted for months. I missed it but I couldn't do it. Some forces were holding me down.
Did I felt content? did I needed time to digest that I had open the door to a new world? Was I scared not to be able to repeat the experience? maybe it was just another of my caprice. How many things did I tried in my life, really!! how many did I start and never finished. I lost the count.
Or Maybe the universe was sending me a message or helping me to just take a break.
Breaks are needed, they are healthy.
This morning, something happened inside of me. I felt I had to go back, but in a softer way.
I understood that I shouldn't feel guilty, I didn't waste my time, I just took my time.
So I' m back to my writing one day at the time, Starting today, one page at the time.
What's important right now is the NOW.
I'm back on my second draft full time with the help of a dear friend who is also a writer.
I don't have to rush it, I just have to do it. And it would take as long as it take, as long as I feel happy.
'' In dealings with our creative U-turns, we must first of all extend ourselves some sympathy. Creativity is scary, and in all careers there are U-turns. Sometimes these U-turns are best viewed as recycling times. We come up to a creative jump, run out from it like a skittish horse, then circle the field a few times before trying the fence again'' ( The artist's way)